Friday, June 6, 2014

Roses for Sophie

As per the usual, it's dry here.  I've already re-planted my vegetable garden once. However, what's amazing is that these little rose bushes in my flower garden have never had more than one or two blooms at a time.  A couple of days ago I counted the blooms - at least thirty/plant.  Unreal.  I can't help but think they're a reminder of Sophie's patron saint (Therese) and are a little sign of her upcoming arrival.  

























As we prepare for a new little one to join our family, I'm always flooded with emotions.  I am the crazy lady who after just giving birth holds my new little one in my arms and thinks, "I hope we have more."  I l.o.v.e. the newborn stage.  Yes, it's tough.  No, I'm not always smiling.  In fact, I think I cry quite a bit.  But, there is absolutely nothing like their smell, the way they fit so perfectly cuddled up in your arms with their head at the base of your neck.  They are only tiny for a few moments, and every thing in their life is dependent upon you. As I watch some of my friends' babies grow via Instagram or other forms of social media, I realize just how quickly time passes.  It's the one thing I think people say the most.  And, I have to constantly remind myself that the passage of time and their growing up is a blessing...it's a good thing.  What if they didn't get the chance?  I just have to remember to soak up every moment...one no more precious than the other on their journeys.  Regardless of their age or size, they are always our children.

So, as I anxiously await seeing what little Sophie will look like, whose nose she will have, what color her eyes will be, if she'll have hair, if she'll have dimples, and if she'll be as big as the doctor is predicting, I also remember that on Monday, our lives will change forever.  For the better.  But there is still that teeny tiny part of me that gets caught up in wondering exactly how things will change.  Have I spent enough time with each of my boys?  Do they know that I love them just as much as I will love this new little baby, even though the time spent alone with a child will be heavily weighted in her direction for awhile?  Will they know when she arrives home how much their lives will be better with her in them, or will they just be a little upset for awhile?

With each new birth, I am more clearly aware of the blessing of a child.  And, each time around, even though I worry over inconsequential things, I'm made more aware of the gift of a sibling, a new son/daughter and the incredible gift of life.  It is something that even on the most trying of days, I never want to take for granted.

I thank God for the opportunity to have one more, as I know it is an incredible gift and a complete miracle. Yes, come Monday, our lives will be altered but in the most beautiful way.

12 comments :

  1. Aw, that's really beautiful. The newborn stage really gets more precious with each child I think. Which is a beautiful miracle in of itself when you think about it!
    Did I miss why you know you're having the baby on Monday? Do you have to have a scheduled induction? Either way I'll be praying for you Britt!

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  2. Great post. I will be thinking about you next week.

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    1. Thank you so much - means the world to us!

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  3. Oh, this gives me goosebumps. You are the best momma. I can't wait for Sophie to meet you!!

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  4. Oh wow… C-R-A-Z-Y to think you'll have a new little one in a few short days. Will be praying for you in these final moments before you officially become a party of SIX. What a gift and miracle. Yes, treasure these moments, memories and miracles…

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  5. Beautiful roses...especially a sign for Sophie! I, too, love the newborn stage. I just took the crib down...it took me almost a month to get my nerve up to do it ;)

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  6. I love this! It completely sums up my feelings these past few weeks. I agree too as I am loving this newborn stage, yes I'm tired and have cried over the silliest of things but just soaking in every moment! It's so precious. I can't wait to see your lil one! Praying for you!!

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  7. The roses are so beautiful! What a sweet reminder of Sophie's upcoming arrival :)

    The newborn stage sounds so perfect! I can't wait to follow along!

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  8. I'm SO happy for you and can't wait to 'meet' your newest addition! :) And I can't wait until my newborn is here. I'm only 15 weeks right now, but I know the time will fly!!!

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  9. This was so wonderful to read, I really needed this today! Every moment, great, good, not so good, they are all memories and blessings in their own right. I am so excited for you guys. I can only imagine the anxiousness building! Oh, and I love the newborn stage. Like really love it, I am the same way after that baby is put in my arms I think, yep I could do this again!

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  10. Sounds like today is the day. Best of luck to you and your family in this beautiful time!

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  11. So I've had this post saved as unread in my reader for awhile now (hello, Sophie's here Sheena!) so I could comment on how beautiful your words are and how much I loved it! Better late than never I guess! :)

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